I struggled to feel like I could be a good mom and businesswoman. My ayahuasca trip changed everything.

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This as-told-to essay is based on a conversation with Lindsay Roselle, a 42-year-old entrepreneur and mom from Colorado who attended an ayahuasca retreat and started microdosing psilocybin. It's been edited for length and clarity. There's no medical consensus about whether these plant medicines have benefits, and these drugs can come with risks.